Reading null's journal

Nov 19, 2007 09:20 # 45213

null tells about...

Six years later

82% | 3

Wow, going back to this thread brings up quite a few memories. :-)

So where am I now, six years and ten days later? A lot has changed, but isn't that what always happens to long-term plans?

A bit less than three years ago Honeybunny and me moved in together. One and a half years ago we married. Last spring we moved to Liechtenstein, into a great apartment close to her parents, and started making plans to take over their house once it becomes too big for them. Honeybunny wanted to stop taking the pill on May 5, our wedding anniversary.

Last week I've made a list of stuff in our apartment and how to split it up, and sometime soon we'll need an appointment with the judge to file for divorce. There's a long story behind that, but suffice to say that the magic has gone and will likely not return.

It goes without saying that I'm not exactly happy at the moment, now that I've lost the person I loved so much and most of the plans I've been living for for the last few years have been shattered.

On the other hand, being proactive and making new plans helps a lot, so that's what I'm doing now. And I'm really curious what I'll think when I return to this place on Nov 29 2013 and read what I'm writing right now, and what will have become of today's plans by then.

The first plan is rather easy. I've almost forgotten how much fun it is to go out drinking with buddies, possibly at a ska or (punk) rock concert. Since October I've seen and had more such action than during my entire marriage, my list of 'fun places to go' has been considerably extended and almost everywhere I go chances are that I meet somebody I know.

The second plan is old, but now I have the freedom to find somebody who will share this dream of mine. When I've saved enough money, I want to buy an old transporter (Renault Master, VW LT or Mercedes Sprinter) and retrofit it as a motorhome during the course of two or three years. This means potentially fixing a car, planning and building the interior with my own hands (and maybe those of a buddy or two), designing and building lots of electronic gadgets, some plumbing and some mechanical work on the transporter itself. I get to create things out of wood, metal, plastic, fabric, you name it, and all on my own. When that's all done I'll not only be the happiest and proudest motorhome owner in the world (considered the thing still rolls), but also have the means to take two months off work, start the engine and drive wherever I hope to find something interesting.

The third plan is to reduce my life to a minimum. I currently live in a beautiful 110m² apartment with comfort ventilation, a big-ass balcony, a Star Trek-style stove without buttons and knobs and a heated garage. I've got a decent car and four computers and tons of all kinds of stuff in shelves. I eat out once or twice a week.
All these things are nice to have but I don't really need them.
I'm a lucky guy because I don't need much to be content, but I can get pleasure out of almost anything I have. A few weeks from now I'm going to put that superpower to the test.
Travelling is easier with light baggage, and every luxury item I can do without means more money on my bank account - money I can save to eventually make bigger dreams possible.

These are my new dreams. I'm looking forward to turning them into reality and am eager to see what else life will throw my way.

When life hands you a lemon, that's 40% of your RDA of vitamin C taken care of.

Nov 19, 2007 09:38 # 45214

andromacha *** replies...

Re: Six years later

?% | 2

My heart is with you, Bernie. There is nothing more to say: be strong, and chase your happiness wherever that shall lead you. And, most importantly, be sure of all your decisions from now on, and be confident in yourself and your abilities.

Italy no longer accepts illegal immigrants. Mr. B sink their boats!!!!!!!

Nov 19, 2007 11:07 # 45216

null smiles...

Re: Six years later

Thank you.

When life hands you a lemon, that's 40% of your RDA of vitamin C taken care of.

Nov 19, 2007 11:37 # 45217

charlie *** replies...

Re: Six years later

?% | 1

Even though I don't know either of you in reality, I'm really sad.

Let me say that happiness never lasts, anywhere. With computers, motorhomes, drinking, rock shows, travel or even in marriage. That's why you aim for something bigger than happiness; you aim for something outside yourself.

...That's my opinion, but I don't have any room to talk. I'm currently in a dating relationship purely for fun and happiness. We know that won't last forever.

Take care, the both of you. I hope you find Peace.

Please contiune to vote AND post.

Nov 20, 2007 00:01 # 45218

ginsterbusch *** wants to know...

Re: Six years later

?% | 1

Ah yes ... a totally different question: what happens to NAOs home? ie. this very server?

gonna move it back to Germany or some racket space?

if you're going to do one of those things you mentioned above you probably want to put out this thing, too...

cu, w0lf.

beards are cool. every villain has one!

Nov 20, 2007 08:11 # 45219

null has all the information you need...

Re: Six years later

The server comes with me, if possible NAO will stay on it. Otherwise it will be moved to another server in Switzerland or the US. If all goes well interruption time should be minimal.

When life hands you a lemon, that's 40% of your RDA of vitamin C taken care of.

Nov 20, 2007 08:44 # 45220

andromacha *** shakes her head...

Nao... the least of null's problems

?% | 1

Guys, I think that Netalive should be really the least of null's problems at the moment. If it is going to be offline for a while... well peace. I mean, I know that our forum is important for all of us, and I am the first one who will miss not being able to reach it at least once a day, but right now I don't think that we should worry about the server so much.

Bernie is facing a hard time in his life, and instead of worrying about where the server shall be, when it shall be moved, what we'll do in the meantime, whether there is going to be some offline time for netalive.org or similar questions, we should be close to Bernie (and Tamara for that matter) with our thoughts, our support, our friendship, and our love.

I am not so interested in where the server will be moved, or how long it will take it to be back online, rather I care more about our friend here. Maybe it's because I met him also in real life, I don't know, but I just wish that for once we weren't so interested in such material things, which are idiotic if compared to the pain Bernie is going through.

Really, the only thing I could be worried about would be not being able to reach Bernie if the server is offline. (I will say it here now, so you have proof that I will be trying to contact you, Bernie) I will rely on smses, but since they screwed me over in the past, I am really only worried about not being able to talk to him, and know how he's doing. That's the only reason why I hope that it won't take too long for nao to be back online.

So, Bernie, take all the time you need to fix things up. I will also buy an international card, so I can call you if I need to :P Peace. *kiss*

Italy no longer accepts illegal immigrants. Mr. B sink their boats!!!!!!!

Nov 20, 2007 11:20 # 45222

ginsterbusch *** replies...

Re: Nao... the least of null's problems

Guys, I think that Netalive should be really the least of null's problems at the moment. If it is going to be offline for a while... well peace. I mean, I know that our forum is important for all of us, and I am the first one who will miss not being able to reach it at least once a day, but right now I don't think that we should worry about the server so much.

Well .. somebody had to ask the question. In any case, I'd be happy to help at least with that probably lesser problem ;)
Whether it'd be putting the server up into some rack space located at one of my (webhosting) friends' sites or helping to move it elsewhere.

Aside of this, I'm happy to know that you're thinking forward again, Bernie! I know how such a situation can fuck up your whole life (not to mention the shattering etc.).

Well, maybe you would like to come over here to Karlsruhe for some days? It aint that far from Liechtenstein or Switzerland, in any case ;)

cu, w0lf.

beards are cool. every villain has one!

This post was edited by ginsterbusch on Nov 20, 2007.

Nov 20, 2007 11:20 # 45221

MelMel *** replies...

Re: Six years later

?% | 1

You know that plan is all well and good my dear null... However you've neglected to mention when in this plan you'll be coming to melbourne to party on my beach with me. We have the greates pubs in the world.

You lack effective planning skills :P

-mel.X.

Look at me! I'm a prostitute robot from the future!

Nov 20, 2007 22:08 # 45225

null smiles...

Re: Six years later

However you've neglected to mention when in this plan you'll be coming to melbourne to party on my beach

You know, if I ever manage to fly to Oz you'll know it the moment you get an SMS saying "I'm lost somewhere in Melbourne, how the fsck do I get to your place now, and where's my luggage?".


Seriously, thanks y'all for your kind words. I'm a lucky guy to have so many supportive friends, both in real life and in cyberspace. Without that constant influx of sympathy, moral support and invitations to get drunk I'd probably be sitting in a corner crying by now. No, really.

As for Karlsruhe, I've been thinking about a weekend trip there for quite a while, but at the moment I'm just way too busy. But I'll eventually make it, and then the first keg of beer is on me!

The NAO server can stay where it is for the time being. Even if I'm actually moving out of here next week the old place and 'net connection are still available to me; the only reason why I might take the server with me is because my MP3 and movie collection is on it, and then I'd simply move NAO to another server. In any case, if NAO goes offline the outage will be relatively short and announced early.

Everything else remains to be seen, I really have no plans beyond the first half of next week, nor the ability to tell what will happen afterwards.

When life hands you a lemon, that's 40% of your RDA of vitamin C taken care of.


Favorites (edit)

Small text Large text

Netalive Amp (Skin for Winamp)