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Jul 29, 2008 01:20 # 45919

ginsterbusch *** feels excited about...

Re: Six years later

Holy @*$##, dude, is it really you? Hello, man, you've been missed! :-D

yeah, me too .. holy fucking molly! RCD, where have you been man!

cu, w0lf.

beards are cool. every villain has one!

Jul 29, 2008 08:26 # 45924

ReallyCoolDude *** replies...

Re: Six years later

Hi Bernie, it's nice to read your journal entries and find you much happier now. I wish you the best. It's nice to be back too and I missed NAO too. How is everyone here, and what has NAO been upto? I haven't really checked the site much in last couple of years - was too occupied with a lot of things, some of which I have mentioned in my last 2 journal entries. Yes, my previous address is invalid since we bought a new house here.

Good to know that you are doing well.

Love is blind, but marriage is a real eye opener.

Aug 01, 2008 11:17 # 45940

null smiles...

Re: Six years later

Good to know that you are doing well.

Thank you, and the same to you. It looks as if you've had two rather interesting years, too! (And isn't it funny how much of our life has been documented on this site?)
So it looks like you're planning to stay in Canada?

When life hands you a lemon, that's 40% of your RDA of vitamin C taken care of.

This post was edited by null on Aug 01, 2008.

Sep 08, 2008 08:57 # 46006

ReallyCoolDude *** agrees...

Re: Six years later

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Hey Bernie,

Yes, indeed. A major part of my life has been documented pretty well at NetAlive. One day, when I do become famous, I will request you or Jaz to export all my posts and that could become part of my (auto)biography. :-)

As of now, yes, I am planning to stay in Canada, but once I get my citizenship, I will have a lot of options open, and I haven't speculated on that yet, but yes, so far it looks like, I have found a home, and am quite happy. I am glad that I am not one of the 56% Americans who still find it hard to decide between a clone of Bush or someone who would actually be progressive for their country (and the rest of the world). I am really happy that I decided to settle down in Canada.

At one point in my career here in Canada, I had 14 people reporting to me, all from different cultural backgrounds - 2 were from Russia, 2 from Israel, 2 from China, 2 from UK, 2 Canadians, 2 Romanians, 2 from USA; where else in this world would you find such cultural diversity! I am really happy that I ended up making a choice and coming up over here. Canada has provided me every opportunity that the USA didn't.

Love is blind, but marriage is a real eye opener.

This post was edited by ReallyCoolDude on Sep 08, 2008.

Jan 02, 2009 21:31 # 46175

rosyxxx *** wants to know...

Re: Six years later

Hey Bernie,

Every once in a great, great while I get a chance to get online and visit. Having read this post, I remember the letter you sent when all of your plans with "honeybunny" went to hell in a handbasket. I am sorry that all of that happened, and I wish I could have been there to be a resource for you, as a friend. I however, truly and honestly lost your address,after sending one letter. The 6'5" child I was dating at the time saw your letter, and was very jealous that I was getting letters from a man in Switzerland, and I expect that had something to do with it. No amount of explaining that you were simply a dear friend would make sense to him; consequently he is gone, and so is your address. Hmm.

I tried several times to log on here, infrequently, and communicate to you my e-mail address, so that there could be some sort of contact, since I have no computer, but I DO have a phone which receives e-mail. I thought maybe, somehow, I could communicate with everyone by e-mail, but I can't give it out here, since I don't know for sure if the same stalker who caused so many problems when I was here before, is still here. I'd prefer he not have ANY access to me. Do you see how this has presented a problem in communicating?

Again, let me add that, having read that last letter, I was deeply saddened for you. Reading this post, it sounds as if you have dealt with the issues between yourselves well, and are moving on. I am very happy to see that. I would love to be able to log on here regularly to say "hi" to everyone, but since that is not possible, I had thought that you could be the 'liasion', so to speak, and communicate through e-mail, potentially giving my e-mail address to Wolf,Elena and others...since I have no intention of posting it here; the reason being the stalker that I had way-back when, whose antics helped to destroy many friendships on this site, is likely still reading this site, on occasion, in hopes of finding out something about me. Though some of you here may not think so, standing on the outside, he could cause me great harm, financially and otherwise. My life is none of his business, so therefore I will not be writing here about myself. BUT, I would like to be able to e-mail back and forth with you, null, and Elena and Wolf.

To that end, I'll try periodically to log on, hoping to see you online, and get your address again, so that I can 'snail mail' my e-mail address to you...Unless, of course, you have no desire to communicate with me. Having tried several times to communicate with you here through brief posts, I am wondering if I am just supposed to get the hint that you don't want to talk to me, for some reason. I can't imagine why, though. I'd love to hear about what is going on in your lives, and share mine as well. Through e-mail, which I can check on my phone. Not here. I reiterate, I don't have access to the computer that often, just my phone with e-mail capabilities. I also have no intention of potentially being "visible" to my stalker, whether he is here or not. I hope I have done nothing recently to offend any of you, and for offences in the past, a pardon would be really nice. Please do try to at least 'enlighten' me on the subject, if you can...and until then, Happy New Year 2009, much love, and good luck with all your "motorhome" plans.

My mind is made up...not like my bed, which is a mess.

Jan 05, 2009 18:25 # 46178

ginsterbusch *** replies...

Re: Six years later

You could also simply send me a direct mail including your phone number, or give me a call ;)

cu, w0lf.

beards are cool. every villain has one!

This post was edited by ginsterbusch on Jan 05, 2009.

Jan 12, 2009 21:27 # 46181

rosyxxx *** replies...

Re: Six years later

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Hey Wolf! Sorry I couldn't get back sooner...it IS awkward for me. I can't call you, since I don't have a 'landline' phone, or ANY phone which will call long distance. Sorry. :( I'll e-mail you my e-mail. Would love to hear how you are doing through e-mail, which I can check. Meanwhile, what's up with Bernie? Should I just stop trying to contact him? Did I piss him off in some way I don't know about? Because if I did, my life is way too busy to keep trying to contact people who don't want to talk to me - if that is the case it is highly unfortunate. I've tried enough times that my feelings are now hurt. I thought he would be a good person to get my e-mail to everyone...

However, since that appears not to be the case, please do pass my address on to Elena and Hawkeye. Last I heard they were engaged, and Bernie was flying solo. I gather that Bernie is now connected again, and that makes me smile!!!

Anyway, thanks to all of you. You, Wolf,Bernie,Elena,and Hawkeye in particular for helping so much and being so kind while I was being stalked here on the site and offline. Thank you for all your kindnesses and love. And thanks again Bernie for all the chocolate. Thanks are due as well to James and Wendy for their love and support until all the craziness deteriorated into meanness. If they ever want to bury the hatchet I am always open. I've already said I'm sorry a bizillion times, but sorry again. Lots of love to everyone.

Sorry for any offense I caused, or that my stalker caused. And for the record, I am currently 41, and am not my mother. That post that set Wendy off was purely creative writing. I think there is even a section of the book "House of Leaves", and many other books and writings where the authors temporarily assume a different identity. I didn't think it would be that hard to figure out I was comforting myself with a "posthumous letter from my mother", considering how much I divulged about myself and my family prior to the post. Taking liberties with my journal is not like what my stalker was doing to me, AT ALL!

The whole mess was highly unfortunate, and I guess, you Wolf, more than anyone else, maybe, might actually understand that as well as I do. People have misunderstood you alot around here as I recall...I guess we all can be jackasses, huh? I know I am one at times, because, wow, I'm human.

So, if I don't hear from Bernie, his loss, and I'd be happy to hear from you. But please do me a favor and tell everyone I said thank you for everything they did for me several years ago. I was very, very, very grateful, and still am. Were it not for those kindnesses, I might not be hale and hearty and healthy as I am now. Miss you all much. Keep in touch, if you'd like. Nothing should be so bad as to warrant unforgiveness. I even hugged my stalker when I saw him in the park two years ago. And if he were to stop being such an evil fuck, I'd let him back in my life, yes I would. I'd rather be more than at peace with everyone; I'd rather we were all friends again... personally, but that's just me, I guess. However, I see myself and the people on this site changing more readily than that asshole probably ever will. But hope springs eternal, huh?

Well, feel free, Wolf to fill me in on what's happenin' with you, and if you e-mail me with your address, I will do the same. Take care, my friend in the ghoulish makeup, and hope to chat soon...

My mind is made up...not like my bed, which is a mess.

Dec 02, 2009 15:10 # 46633

Intelex * replies...

Re: Six years later

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Life is a funny thing, I used to be active on this site when it was first born. Then I got married had a kid, etc. Then I got divorced. (Then today I did a google search for my username to see what sites I was found on, then I found net alive again.) It's been three years now and I can tell you it's all for the better. Live long, party hard sometimes, and love life. Someone will eventually come along again one day that will make you want to risk it all again. Safe journey my friend!

.intelex

Mar 20, 2010 01:20 # 46735

Jen * replies...

Re: Six years later

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Somehow I just stumbled upon this post and started crying all over again - i'm in a similar situation, although i realize you're half way through the other side, seeing how the post was written over two years ago...

wanted to see how your doing and where life has taken you...

"Smile, what's the use of crying? You'll find that life is still worthwhile If you'll just smile."

Mar 20, 2010 12:26 # 46736

null replies...

Re: Six years later

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Oh dear. Consider yourself virtually hugged. I'm afraid that's all I can do from here, but at the very least it's heartfelt and free. Do you feel like talking about it?

Clichéd as it sounds, I still consider 'my' divorce to be one of the best things that have ever happened in my life. It has given me (back) so much freedom. I'm still living with my girlfriend of now 2 1/2 years. She's sweet, very supportive of my plans and does all the cooking, housekeeping and laundry when I'm bogged down with exams. What more could a man ask for? In exchange I take care of her tortoises and massage her feet.

The divorce itself wasn't easy and I can't repeat this too often, I consider myself a very lucky person to have had so many supportive friends during that time. On the plus side, the divorce and the events that lead to it have taught me a lot about myself and life in general.

When life hands you a lemon, that's 40% of your RDA of vitamin C taken care of.


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